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I
have been bothered for weeks since one reverend I visited
made the analogy to a skateboarder being sponsored by a
skateboard company, as an explanation to being affirmed
by the 'Body of Christ' - in asking if my 'calling' was
so affirmed (see journal entry 2.20
).
Now
I understand why he used the skateboard analogy. I thought
I had been affirmed by the reverend, by his change of heart
that day, and by the endorsement of his prayer for the Project.
A different affirmation was coming, unbeknown to me at the
time, but certainly as a result of his odd analogy, which
stayed with me in an annoying fashion, to this point:
Here I am, now, with
$240.00 in my checking account, with no savings, not enough
money for next month's rent or next month's car payment,
keeping my resolve to be faithful to God's providence (as
He has proven himself twice now (journals: 1.20.00
and 9.6.00
) - still, I
confess, I am getting nervous.
Again,
by telephone, I am amazed at what is offered. A call came
in from Warner Brothers Consumer Products Division of Warner
Brothers. I was recommended to them by Exhibitree. They
had a job that needed painting for an upcoming extreme sports
event that they were sponsoring.
Once
again God has come through in the seemingly 'last minutes'
with his Providence - only this time, there is an interesting
message (which some will dismiss as a coincidence).
The
job for Warner Brothers is to paint a particular logo on
the flat surface of a half pipe used for skateboarding.
AND the profit from the job after expenses comes out to
a little over $15,000.00 - the price I need to bring the
Card project to public availability. Of all possible jobs
that could come in -- and this is an industry I have never
worked for or been associated to - x-treme sports, specifically
skateboarding.
Here
is the twist - as I often wonder who will sponsor this project,
were is the money coming from - as it was previously explained
to me, a person being affirmed to ministry, is supported
by the Body of Christ confirmationally and fiscally. Do
I dare to believe that this is a divine affirmation? Is
this project to be a ministry of sorts? An art ministry?
According
to the analogy first given me by the Reverend using a skateboarder/
skateboard company sponsorship as an analogy to affirmation
- by association, I am an artist, God is the Creator (the
Supreme Artist) ... is there an analogous association here
revealed by this WB Skateboarding job as a reference to
being Affirmed by ... Christ?
I
shudder to think, Yet this is amazing.
I
am out of money and I have been provided a job that not
only brings me an income but an income in the amount I need
to produce the Freedom ART Project cards and promotional
support.
This reminds me of
that time ( journal pre
2000: recall 3 )
where I was driving on the freeway concerned with having
companies sponsor my project. After my confession of seeking
sponsorship for worldly approval and validation of what
I was about to do, did God reveal to me than I did not need
validation from man, because He had already validated me
by giving to the project.
This
is amazing and even hard to believe. God's Grace is Amazing.
I am coming to know God, as He works in my life in particular,
has shown beautiful irony, kindness, and humor. I am so
grateful. This has been such a blessing in light of the
pain and anguish I suffered in 1991, when I was 'humbled'
and conformed. That is another story. This journalization
is one for gratitude in God's Mercy and way.
If
this is to become a ministry - if this is God's will - then
I am completely reliant on Him to work His ministry through
this Project. I confess, I do not feel capable of such a
position. Nor am I a good enough example of a 'Christian'
as the public expects it's ministers to be. It would have
to be God working through me as an example of His Glory.
If this is God's will, then let it be.
March continued - Musical
Tongue ...
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