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"If it
is God's will then it will happen - if not - it won't"
- "What are you going to do?" "You are too
concerned about money" "It is God's responsibility,
not yours" - An exercise in futility? Where is the
Love?
In front of
me is a wall I can't seem to get past - my head is bruised
from ramming it into the wall - trying to break on through
to the other side. I slump, my back against another wall
- the two walls are closing in.
"Wait on
the Lord", I am told. Still slumped, breathing increasing,
I plead for an answer - for a door to open, or even to show.
I look around
and see the surmounting bills and the pressing debt left
over from the show, and I know I had better run lest I suffocate.
I think I see a door upon the wall ahead of me - I charge
it, to find it is a well conceived scheme of mine, but no
door - and my head is bruised. My head is bruised. I am
tired.
What can I do?
Even the birds
who are provided for, must gather their food and build their
nests. I haven't seen a bird wait on a limb until God delivered
a nest full of grubs and seed.
I am out on
a limb. But God has given me skill and a will and I know
there is a way. I will keep trying until I find the door
- keep praying for God's grace, and a way.
I have had people
offer to financially help me - but I say - not me - help
the Project. There is a reason this work must be made -
even I do not know why, but can only speculate the impact
it will have - what I know is that it must be done.
What can I do.
Keep going.
October
continued - Booked to New York ... >>10.30
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