like taking poison and hoping the other person dies."
~ St. Augustine
Is there any
need for resentment? What poison we hold close to our hearts
- our hearts, our sanctum - where we would all do best to
The power to
forgive one's offender is amazing grace - it is also healthy
to one's own being.
It is healthy
not to harbor a poison in a vessel that would absorb the
poison and kill one's being.
How memory can
play the devil, spiting up events we hold as unjust - destructive
venom. And are they unjust, those events our memory serves
Memory is a
wonderful servant - and to remember is necessary to learn
from, so as to modify one's choices or to remember the good
and the love. When memory serves ego fueled by rage, ooooooo,
it is wicked.
I have recently
touched my past - to find I have been pained for years due
to a misunderstanding. I am grateful to be free from my
own confusion and wrongful position. On another level, I
was sad to realize what I once fought for, didn't exist
in the first place.
As I type this,
I am starting to laugh. I laugh in amazement at the things
I have done, and thought, and the feelings I have harbored
- at the futility I find in my life.
It does well
to have a good pruning.
continued - The Question...