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10 . October . 2002


"RESENTMENT is like taking poison and hoping the other person dies."

~ St. Augustine

Past or Future.

Is there any need for resentment? What poison we hold close to our hearts - our hearts, our sanctum - where we would all do best to be pure.

The power to forgive one's offender is amazing grace - it is also healthy to one's own being.

It is healthy not to harbor a poison in a vessel that would absorb the poison and kill one's being.

How memory can play the devil, spiting up events we hold as unjust - destructive venom. And are they unjust, those events our memory serves us?

Memory is a wonderful servant - and to remember is necessary to learn from, so as to modify one's choices or to remember the good and the love. When memory serves ego fueled by rage, ooooooo, it is wicked.

I have recently touched my past - to find I have been pained for years due to a misunderstanding. I am grateful to be free from my own confusion and wrongful position. On another level, I was sad to realize what I once fought for, didn't exist in the first place.

As I type this, I am starting to laugh. I laugh in amazement at the things I have done, and thought, and the feelings I have harbored - at the futility I find in my life.

It does well to have a good pruning.


October continued - The Question... >>10.3





be annoyed at: to feel aggrieved about something or toward somebody often because of a perceived wrong or injustice

[Late 16th century. From obsolete French ressentir, literally “to feel strongly,” from sentir “to feel,” from Latin sentire “to feel.”]

Etymology: French ressentir to be emotionally sensible of, from Old French, from re- + sentir to feel, from Latin sentire -- more at SENSE
Date: 1628

: to feel or express annoyance or ill will at


ill feeling: aggrieved feelings about something or toward somebody, usually as a result of ill-usage or insult, or an instance of these

: a feeling of indignant displeasure or persistent ill will at something regarded as a wrong, insult, or injury